Introverted

I am by no means the outgoing, “look at me” kind of woman. At times I do want my voice heard. People definitely do not understand this introvert and maybe I’m a different breed all my own. Perhaps, though, you can identify with some of these struggles as well?
1. People tend to think I am rude or don’t like them because I don’t always greet someone right away. I keep to myself in social settings and maybe you can’t understand that, but I seriously hate small talk. It’s the worst. Especially with strangers. Having a complete stranger ask me about school/work goals and I’m like thanks stranger for making me feel shitty that I have no direction in life. Geez.
2. There are times when, yeah, I do want to talk and for the life of me no one hears what I’m saying. Sucks to be a soft spoken introvert.
3. Or people interrupt me. Like, come on I am talking! You point out that I never talk and then you want to talk over me?
4. Sometimes when I am comfortable with people I do actually talk a lot and most people just laugh when I tell them I do. Instead you should wonder why I’m not as comfortable with you. Just sayin.
5. There are times when people put me in the spotlight. I absolutely hate it. You know who I am and yet you still want to call me out. I am afraid of all the attention. My face turns red. My heart beats wildly inside my chest. I cannot even think well. It’s just horrible for me.
6. Yet, on my own terms I will be the spotlight. As long as I’m not thrown in.
7. Though I do enjoy my alone time I do still crave human interaction sometimes.

Too me?

Insecure and not quite sure.
Am I this hideous creature you claim of me?
Too white. Too skinny. Too long of a nose. Too quiet. Too introverted. Too religious. Too broken. Too lost. Too emotional. Too this. Too that. Too much. Too not enough.